We lose part of our identity in our attempts to avoid feeling pain
I just came across this blog post I wrote in 2016 but never published. I felt like it was time I shared it. :) For the majority of 2016 I felt very uncertain about my future. Events took place that altered my perception of how my life would play out. It left me feeling more vulnerable than I care to admit to. I found myself retreating from God. I suppose part of me blamed Him for my uncertainty and I let doubt overrule my faith. I found myself trying to do everything on my own. Stubbornness is no stranger to me. I didn't want to let things be up to chance. I wanted everything to work out my way on my time. Most of this was subconscious, yet looking back now and analyzing the past year, I can see exactly what I was doing. It is normal for human beings to avoid pain. It is uncomfortable, uncertain, and demands our attention. Pain isn't something you can ignore for long. I saw a movie preview last week and heard something that really caused me to ponder. The quote was "the...
