In church last week I was looking through my inspiration journals and reflecting on God's hand in my life. I like to do that and be reminded of how many answers the Lord gives me on a daily basis. I think it is vital to reflect back on God's hand in your life in order to give you an increase of faith for whatever difficulties you may be facing at the moment. Like all good things, the passage of time can weaken our memory and lessen our awareness of the blessings we've been given. I try to make it a habit of continually reading back on prayers that have been answered, inspiration that has been given, and lessons i've been taught. I highly recommend doing that. I always have an inspiration journal where I write down my conversations with God. While I was reading through my journal on Sunday I came across something I wrote a few months ago. It resonated with me once again. It gave me an increase of strength to push through the difficulties and stay focused on what really matters.
"An Inside Look Into My Conversations With God"
One day everything that is broken will be fixed.
Agonizing sorrow will turn into indescribable peace.
Doubts and fears will become unquestionable assurances.
Hatred will dissipate, anger will cease, and love will remain.
Our uncertain purpose and future will reveal itself.
Forgetfulness will be replaced with remembrance.
Darkness will be over-swept with light... things will be clear.
We will no longer ask "who am I?" because we will know.
We will learn that coincidences were actually miracles.
The times we felt alone we were actually surrounded by unseen angels.
Questions lead to answers which lead to knowledge-truth.
Ponder on the things you know and you will come to know more.
Do not doubt the place you are in... learn from it.
Let every mistake you make refine you.
Never give up. Don't let go of what matters most.
Every day is a new start.
Let go of who you were, and you will become who you were meant to be.
Life wasn't meant to be perfect. It was intended to teach us.
Every experience we encounter molds our character.
Embrace those experiences. They are there for a reason.
Hold fast to what you know and move forward.
Always keep moving forward.
Don't let your mistakes define you.
Believe that anything is possible. Believe it!
Your purpose has been outlined for a very long time.
God will reveal that purpose as you seek Him.
I've been thinking about that a lot this week. Isn't it amazing how much God will tell you if you simply just ask. That's it. He is such a loving, generous God. He has ALL wisdom and He is willing to give it to us, we just need to be ready to hear it. It reminds me of a quote my teacher shared with me several years ago in college. It said "The teacher will appear when the student is ready". We are the only thing keeping us from receiving more truth and knowledge. We get in our own way, and if we are aware of it, we can step aside and allow ourselves to be taught from God.
When I returned home from my mission several years ago, I had to go get a new temple recommend. I sat across from a member of the stake presidency where I proceeded to answer the questions he asked. When I was done, he asked if he could pray with me. He offered to say the prayer. When he started speaking it felt like he was giving me a blessing. The spirit was so strong. I remember silently crying and wiping away the tears. I cannot tell you everything he said in that prayer, but I do remember one thing standing out to me. He said that I was a warrior. I came down here to fight. When the prayer was over I thanked him for what he had said. He also was emotional as he told me that I will live a very unconventional life. He said the spirit told him very strongly that I was a warrior! I've thought about that off and on over the past few years. However, recently it has been on my mind a lot more.
I reflected on the concept of being a warrior for many hours this morning as we traveled the countryside back to Romania. What is a warrior? What makes them different? What qualities make up a good warrior? What is their purpose? I had many questions and I just wanted God to teach me what He meant by that comment. In order to be a warrior I need to know what that entails. The following are some of the answers to my questions.
-A warrior is deeply rooted and unwavering in a cause much deeper than themselves.
-A warrior has a very clear purpose- they know what they are fighting for.
-A warrior is bold, hopeful about the final outcome, and determined to succeed.
-A warrior is filled with assurance and conviction.
-A warrior steps forward knowing there is no turning back. They are fully committed to the cause.
-A warrior is not distracted by enticements of the foe.
-A warrior always knows which side he is on. It is a position he defends with his life.
-A warrior has something to live for.
-A warrior pledges themselves to the cause long before the battle begins.
-A warrior does not falter. They are devoted and firm in their purpose.
I realized that before a war begins the sides must be chosen. It you don't actively choose a side, then you will fall to the side that wants a warrior without a cause. Now is the time for us to choose whose side we are on. It is the time to let go of the things that keep us from God. It is the time to make a decision and not look back! It means taking a step forward and removing all other options. We have SOOO much potential to change the world. We have God on our sides. He won't leave us alone to fight His battles. He will empower us, strengthen us, and direct us. We will see miracles as we stand firm in our convictions without hesitation. This is our purpose! We came down here to do God's will and return to live with Him again. We cannot expect to choose whose side we are on once the battle begins. We need to do it now. Choose to be a warrior! Choose to devote yourself to a cause much bigger than who you are. Choose to step into the light and leave the dark and confusion behind.
One of my favorite scriptures is Doctrine and Covenants 45:62 "For verily, I say unto you, that great things await you;"
This scripture resonates with my soul. It inspires hope and trust in God and in what lies ahead. The future is so bright with possibilities and unknowns. The adventures are right around the corner and new opportunities to grow are always presenting themselves to us. Never give up on what lies ahead, because what lies ahead is great! It is something to look forward to with hope!