Sunday, May 23, 2010

What Have I To Learn?

Sometimes things happen in our lives that don't quite make sense. The unexpected occurs and we wonder why. We wonder "why me?" or "Why now?" Well as I too have thought these very things this week, I stopped and thought to myself... perhaps I am looking at things from the wrong perspective. Maybe what I should be saying is "Why not?" perhaps the question on the tip of my mind should be "What have I to learn from this experience? What can I gain that will help me progress in the future?" I like to think that everything happens for a reason. Things come and go, but knowledge is the one thing that will remain. At the end of the day, things get better. We cannot change others actions. Other people's actions will sometimes have an effect on ourselves. People often claim that what they do will only reflect on them... They think that their actions have no influence on the lives of those around them. Well I disagree. Everything we do has an effect on other people. If not immediately, then somewhere down the line, that action will have some repercussions.

Sometimes in life you are stuck outside in the rain without an umbrella. No matter what you do, ultimately you are going to get wet. You may not have for seen a storm. But guess what... It happened. Can we control the weather? more than we can control another human being. Now as you are standing outside getting wet, you have two options. You can choose to get angry and let your emotions get the better of you. You can let this have a direct impact on how the rest of your day will go, or... you can choose to lift your head to the skies and smile. You can choose to see it for what it is... a storm that will pass. Why not enjoy the fresh rain water falling on your face. Why not let it cleanse you. You can choose how this will effect you for the rest of the day. I relate this to problems in our lives. Problems that we may have not seen coming. Problems that we may not have caused but have effected us anyways. We can choose to become down and angry and frustrated, or we can choose to look heavenward. We can choose to see the situation for what it is... a storm that will pass. We can ask ourselves "What have I to learn from this experience? How can I take what I have learned and apply to the future? How can I help to prevent a situation like this from happening again?" Now if you choose to look up, you will eventually see the sun come through when the rain is gone. It may not happen right away, but eventually it will. If you choose to look down, you are going to miss the sun. You will miss the light shining on you. So what I have to say is... LOOK UP! Keep your head high. There is light. There is warmth. Embrace it. Never let your situations overpower your true purpose here. If you look long enough, you will eventually see God and his light shining down on you!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

I'm Back... 2 months later!

Ah... I finally have time to write again. It has been several months. I have missed blogging. Believe it or not, I think this is an excellent outlet for my stress. It gives me a chance to organize all my thoughts.

I have become somewhat numb to certain situations in my life. I have found that when something stresses me out, I don't talk about it. I choose to pretend it doesn't exist. I don't know if this is healthy or not, but I do it anyways. I don't wanna be pressured or stressed with money. You can never have enough money. I feel like I work my butt off and at the end of the day I still don't make enough money for the things I would like. I don't want to be motivated by money. I feel like I am not that way, but then I feel pressure that I need to do more so that I can make more. I don't know how I can do this. I am mentally, emotionally, and least of all physically drained. I have no energy. I want to sleep... I want to sleep rather than hangout with friends, rather than go to church, rather than go to the gym. I want to sleep instead of read. I hate sleeping!! I don't want to miss out on life, but that's all I want to do lately. My brain is fried, I feel like I am having to work at making conversation with people. It shouldn't be like that. I find myself in conversations and having nothing to say back. My brain has temporarily stopped working. I should find a new job, but the one I have pays better than what I could be making somewhere else. I need the money, which is why I am working. Work sucks.

I am in desperate need for some fun. I wish things could be the way they were when I was 5 years old. Happy go lucky if you will. Back to the days where I would get excited just to hear the ice cream truck coming down the street, where collecting rolly polly bugs was fun, and spongebob was enough entertainment for the whole day. I think it really is time I went to the zoo.

But enough of that junk. Lets talk about the good things in life. Family. I love my family. They are so fun, loud, and quirky. That is why we are fun. haha we sat around on Sunday playing a game where one person starts out by saying a word. The next person has to come up with a word and so on. You are creating random sentences. You end up telling stories about the most random things. hahaha When you don't know what to say, we said "poop." It made everything even funnier. One story was all about Amanda wearing purple magical underwear. (don't ask... like I said, random.) haha we were laughing so hard. I seriously love my family. Liv is home for the summer, so it has been nice to have everyone home before Amanda goes on her mission.
Here is a brief recap of all that has happened in the past 2 months. They say a picture is worth a thousand words... well here you go.

Getting ready for relief society lunch bunch
Owl City concert
Working Friday with Amanda
Closing my eyes after an 11 hour work day!
Dad broke his ankle the day we were supposed to go to Tyler's wedding. We had to call 911 after her went unconscious. (lucky for me I snapped a picture, and he will hate it when he finds out I put it on my blog... o well! It's too good not to!)
Dad sitting on the couch with his leg up. He pretty much sits here all day since he has a hard time moving.

Amanda's graduation 4/2010

Amanda and I testing out my new camera

Trip to Ikea with Mum and Liv

Howie and I

T-Fred's wedding

We leave for Mexico in two weeks. I seriously am trying to get my bum in shape. Work it! haha deserts are my weakness, how can I say no to desert?! Its hard. So hard. All the people down south may just have to deal with the fact that my bod is out of shape. I have been going to the gym though. That has to count for something right...? And believe it or not, I actually have been sweating. Mum says I only go to the gym to look pretty. Well, I'll tell you right now, me sweating is not pretty. But i am doing it. wo0ot wo0ot! Now, finding a swimsuit that will hold up my chest is another problem entirely. Seriously... how am I supposed to wear a swimsuit without a bra in it. It just isn't gonna work out. I have searched many a place to try to find one that is cute, but also meets criteria. Ya... negative. Zip. None. Is it unreasonable to ask for a cute, big boob holding swimsuit?! ha ridiculous.

Well, I think I will go read now. I actually feel like reading. So I will take advantage of this before it wears off. Good day to you all. If no one reads this, then good day to myself I suppose.